Dream...

Am I dreaming? If this is a dream, I hope that I would not wake up.
When you asked me if we would see each other again, I hesitated.
I hesitated not because I did not want to see you again, but because I worried if this would not be true. I hesitated if you just said something to make me happy. However, I was very touched especially when you said that you would like to come to visit me just for seeing me. You might not notice that I was weeping when you said so. When you asked me how I was, I pretended that nothing hapended.
I don't know if we could get on well and what will happen in the future, but I hope that this isn't a dream. Or I should say that I hope that my dream would come true!!

Give myself one more year to try!!!

Finally I remembered to ask the principal about my contract renewal and he seemed to forget that I have asked him about how long the contract would be. Or maybe he did remember but avoided mentioning about it. He and the accountant both agreed that I would stay one more year. When I talked about my work permit won't expire till next September, the accountant told me that was why they would let me stay. She went on and said 'if I have to do that again, I won't let you stay.' Although she used a joking tone, it did frighten me if I want to stay a bit longer...
Anyway, I finally can make sure that I would stay at least one more year. Where I will be after next summer...?!! I think that only God knows..

Why do I still want to stay in England?!!

I keep asking myself this question since I took the teaching job in England last year. It's nealy a year, and I still decided to stay but somehow I still have this query in my mind especially when I am frustrated. Why do I still want to stay here? What for? Why do I still want to stay here when keeping being insulted by those pupils and some parents occasionally? Why do I still insist to work at the same school if I have so many difficulties? Why do I feel upset so easily? Why do I feel so stressed but I still want to stay? Why do I feel angry but still choose to stay? Why? Why? Why?
I know that I won't get all the answer to my qestions at the moment, and I know that God is the only one who knows why I am still here. I know that I could only reply on God and I will try my best to work hard and to take things easy in order to make myself happier. I hope that God will give me wisdom to deal with any difficulties that I encounter and courage to carry on my dream.